Hi all,
From now on, I'll do my best to update this blog weekly. Like I said before, I'm in the process of reconstructing my site, ideas are hard to come by these days, my brain has gone into hybernation. Another thing, there's something wrong with the server I think. I was hoping to update the index page at least, but It wouldn't let me upload files. I'll have to check again.
I have come to the conclusion that the contents on my homepage do not reflect my updated hobbies and interests, so I am going to remove them. The truth is, I feel that I am too old for those stuff, I need to put something more practical, and not things that have been blown out of proportion. The site made me sound as someone who thinks too high of herself, and the world is laughing and she is the only one who does not know it. When I first build that site, life was fresh, young, but things are different now. My outlook on life in general has changed a lot, and I find that things I used to enjoy now seem childish, like my writings for instance, I don't want to be a writer and I have given up on trying to write a book. From now, I write because I enjoy writing, whenever I have the time and whenever the idea comes, no more, no less. I need to broaden my perspectives. At present, I am still not sure what the new contents would be like, but I'll be working on them. Nothing stays the same, that's both wonderful and troubling.
Nothing earth-shattering happened this week. The usual at work, with a little problem with the Braille display and JAWS thrown in. It's still winter, as cold and windy as ever. Conversations over lunch with my colleagues have been refreshing, and fun as always. Kumoi-san commented that my japanese has improved. Maybe, I have, I have to! nowadays, I find it easier to catch jokes, so maybe I have. Everyone at work is busy trying to do whatever needs doing before 31st March which is the end of FY in Japan.
As for me, I'm just enjoying life, reading books and the other usuals, mainly eating snacks, housework, exercising trying to burn down the fat gained from the snacks, going to my japanese class, and thinking about what I want to do in life, what a mix! O yes, one of my new year resolution is to maintain my exercise, so let's see how successful I turn out to be in this. I want to go back to school, hopefully next year, when I have earned enough money to start me off. Till then, I'll work hard on my japanese and polishing up my english and malay, who knows, I may be able to use that to earn some extra cash. Lately, I'm somewhat worried about my mental condition. I'm not exactly going mad, I hope I'm not, well I'm sure I'm not! I've been feeling even more solitary and reclusive and unresponsive than usual, and this is not good. I need something to motivate me, people to push me, to criticise me. I've always been good at motivating myself, but lately it's been more and more difficult to do that.
Well, this is long enough, just to let whoever reads this know that I'm now back to earth.
Hey, good to see you back on blogging. Love to read them so, go on blogging!!!